Love makes you happy and love also brings you pain
But through everything, love only makes you stronger.
I keep you with me in a safe corner of my heart
Where everything is pure and innocent and sacred
A place where no one else can get to and break us
Always. That’s what matters for now.
That is my truth and something you need to know for sure.
I may never wrap myself around what it is about you
that keeps pulling me in
I just know a thread is there connecting us and it’s real.
We will be together
If not in this lifetime, then maybe in the next, or the one after that
but not until we’ve learned the lessons we need to learn,
not until our karma is complete.
And if one day I meet someone else who loves me
who I will fall in love with,
I will not waste my youth and my years waiting for you.
Because I deserve love and respect, loyalty and devotion,
happiness and intimacy
An equal partnership, a true marriage of souls.
And if I find all these things and more in someone else’s arms,
I will not hesitate.
Because life is meant to be lived in love and light
And if I’m ready for that but you aren’t,
I will choose the light over you.
Even if it hurts for a while
I will never deny you freedom, because love doesn’t hold you hostage
and keep you bound together in an endless trinity
of fear, indecision, and stagnation.
You break the chain if it doesn’t serve your highest good,
if it keeps you from living out your best life.
You walk away from the shadows and back into the light
Love always gives you the power to choose destinations.
You have been my secret joy and sadness
The unexpected what-if of my life.
But you are also my most important lesson:
Love only makes you stronger.
P.S. I think I understand it better now, what Meryl Streep said on her Golden Globes Lifetime Achievement Award speech: “Take your broken heart and make it into art.”
I have taken the lessons I’ve learned both inspiring and painful, and woven them into art I am proud of. My life revolves around creating and making sense of life through words. Giving myself over to creating with honesty and vulnerability is also slowly peeling away my layers and showing the best bits of me that were hidden before. You can’t go out into the light without braving the darkness first. ☀️