I am proud of who you are and what you have achieved–long years of hard work and dedication.
But most of all, I am proud of your true heart.
For the rare glimpses of it I have been blessed to see and know and feel.
Those moments you didn’t doubt, and went to meet me halfway.
For braving what you did for a chance to see me
On a night my heart was heavy with grief and couldn’t take anything else–
You were there and I saw you.
You were radiant, and you took the words right out of me.
I never expected that but it woke something in me, something long-buried but had always been there.
Something I hid, that scared me more than anything.
Something not a soul knew until I accepted it.
This love–that fills my cup to the brim and more
Transcending separation and silence–
Your love lights up my soul, and I hope my love lights up yours.

Brave Heart

In all my 34 years of living, I have done a few brave things. My friend would argue and tell me that I’ve done a lot of reckless things in my youth, which is different from being brave. Or she would tell me, “Mas matapang ka naman talaga eh.” Or this, my favorite comment at the moment: “Hindi ka naman talaga ‘docile’ eh”. I just laugh at them all because they’re true.

But the bravest thing I have done so far is finally being honest with myself–realizing, accepting, and admitting to myself even though I don’t fully understand all of it and despite being afraid of it sometimes–this pulsating truth that I love you. That I looked for you once, years before, among unfamiliar faces, that those few chance encounters I tried to chalk up to just random and meaningless when I really wanted the opposite, that time stopped for me when I finally saw you again, that I had to will my rabbit’s heart to calm down and just go for it–talk to you and give you that letter. It was many moons ago, but my heart flutters anew at the memory. And probably to top it all of, the bravest thing of all is this–letting you know through what I do best–writing down the whispers of my soul, that I love you, still. ♥

Six of Cups

I’ve often wondered about you during those lost years. I remember writing you a letter 10 years ago, thinking I would like to give it to you someday if fate decided to let us meet again. In the letter, I wrote my favorite memories of you. How we got into trouble one time, and how I taught you a sneaky thing or two. Nobody would dare suspect me of mischief back then, but the best ones know I’m a perplexing mix of naughty and nice. The heart of the letter was that I wanted you to know how happy and special you made me feel. And that I would always look back on those rare precious moments with you with a smile, accompanied by this imprinted fluttering in my heart. But also with this ache that tells me if only I knew better.

I now believe my soul knew back then who you are to me. I hope you’ll believe you are worth waiting for, no matter the challenge, no matter the cost.

Quarantine Day 5

I dreamt of rain last night. Relentless rain that hit the ground like bullets on pavement. Cleansing rain that washed the virus away. And when it finally stopped and the skies were clear again, everyone was free. No more sickness, death, and fear–just the promise of newness–a road of salvation and second chances that stretched for miles beyond what the eyes can see. Everyone clamoring to get onto the road, eager to shed old skin, for a chance to bask in the light of a world renewed.

– March 19, Quarantine Day 5


Nobody told me how to navigate this kind of love
We will be explorers, pioneers in a wild frontier
We can stake our claim–
everything new and nervous and blushing
Something out of the books I’ve read.
How could it be any different when it’s love?
Only–we wouldn’t be exchanging rings in front of an altar
But solemn vows we would whisper to each other,
Within the walls of our paradise